NOT ALONE – A song written exclusively for my new novel, AFTERWARD

Hey, y’all!  With my third novel, Afterward, about to hit bookshelves in just a few days (September 20!), I wanted to share something really special with all of you.

A few months ago I approached my brother and his girlfriend and music partner Claire and asked if they would be willing to write a song exclusively for Afterward.  I wanted a song that would encompass the big ideas of this novel – friendship, hope, and recovery from trauma.

I wanted a song that would reveal what I think is the book’s central message – that sometimes a soul-saving friendship can be found in the most unexpected place.  And that if we keep searching, we can find a light in the midst of the darkness.

To say Chris and Claire delivered would be an understatement.  They crafted and recorded a song called “Not Alone” that I believe captures Afterward perfectly.  I can’t wait for you to hear it!cc

You can download “Not Alone” for free (or pay what you want!) at Chris and Claire’s Bandcamp site. It’s also available on iTunes and Spotify.  Please be sure to listen!

Not Alone – By Chris and Claire

I’ve been running from the shadows
For quite some time
And the voices won’t stop their echo
In my mind

I’ve seen things I’d rather not remember
And I’ve come undone
But you’ve told me time and time again
You’re not the only one

Not alone
I’m not alone (x2)

It’s a dark road to travel
And I’m afraid
If I let you walk beside me
Will you help me find the way?

But I’m not alone
I’m not alone…

New DEVOTED paperback cover and an AFTERWARD giveaway!

Readers and friends, I’m so excited to share a brand new cover for my second novel, Devoted.  While I adored Devoted‘s original, gorgeous hardcover art, my publisher Macmillan has decided to package the book a bit differently for the paperback in an effort to get Rachel’s story into the hands of even more readers.

So what do you think?

DEVOTED's lovely  new paperback cover!

DEVOTED’s lovely
new paperback cover!











I love the warm colors and the text woven through Rachel’s hair.  And am I the only one who sees a resemblance between the girl on the cover and the actress Scarlett Johansson?

The paperback version of Devoted will be available on September 20, but you can preorder here if you’re interested in adding it to your collection!

Speaking of September 20, that’s the same day my third novel, Afterward, makes its debut.  Afterward tells the story of two Texas teenagers, Ethan and Caroline, whose lives are linked by a kidnapping.  Afterward is about overcoming guilt, secrets, and shame and finding a soul-saving friendship in the most unlikely place.  I’m so proud of this story and eager to get it into the hands of readers.

Even though Afterward isn’t out yet, you have a chance to win a signed advance reader’s copy and a ton of awesome swag by checking out the GReads! blog.  Many thanks to Ginger at GReads! for all her help organizing this giveaway.  By the way, the contest is open to international readers, too, so enter away!  But hurry – the contest closes on May 20.

Sweet AFTERWARD swag and a signed ARC are available!

Sweet AFTERWARD swag and a signed ARC are available!

Did you know preordering a book is one of the best ways to help an author’s sale numbers?  If you’re interested in preordering Afterward, you can click here to order from Amazon or here to order from one of my favorite indie bookstores right here in Houston, Blue Willow Bookshop.  If you order from Blue Willow, please request that I sign your copy before it’s sent out.  I’ll be happy to do it – one more reason to order from an indie!

Introducing the cover of my next novel – AFTERWARD

I am so thrilled to share with you the cover of my next novel, Afterward, out September 20, 2016 from Roaring Brook Press.

Afterward cover

Afterward tells the story of a tragic kidnapping that leads to an unlikely friendship.  At its core, it’s about finding light in the midst of darkness.

The book opens when 16-year-old Caroline’s little brother is kidnapped.  His subsequent rescue leads to the discovery of Ethan, a teenager who has been living with the kidnapper since he was a young child himself. In the aftermath, Caroline can’t help but wonder what Ethan knows about everything that happened to her brother, who is not readjusting well to life at home. And although Ethan is desperate for a friend, he can’t see Caroline without experiencing a resurgence of traumatic memories. But after the media circus surrounding the kidnappings departs from their small Texas town, both Caroline and Ethan find that they each need a friend–and their best option just might be each other.

Readers and friends, I hope this synopsis and this gorgeous cover spark an interest in reading my next novel.

Some super lovely and talented writers of young adult fiction have been kind enough to praise Afterward, and I want to share their thoughts with you.

ava“Afterward is a brave story about the transcendent power of friendship, told with remarkable grace. I became utterly engrossed in the beautifully drawn lives and minds of Ethan and Caroline, and the sensitive, truthful depiction of the bond that begins to heal them both.” – Ava Dellaira, author of Love Letters to the Dead

desir“Heartbreaking and heart mending, Afterward is a beautifully crafted novel that shows the power of hope and the resilience of one incredible boy and the people who care about him. Jennifer Mathieu has again demonstrated the complexity and strength of survivors in an authentic and compassionate way.” – Christa Desir, author of Bleed Like Me and Fault Line

cammieAfterward is a perceptive depiction of recovery from a trauma most of us have only read about in the news. Fans of Jennifer Mathieu’s earlier books should be ecstatic: this is her best one yet.”  – Cammie McGovern, author of Say What You Will and A Step Toward Falling


Wow.  I can only say thank you a million times over for such warm support.

You can add Afterward to your Goodreads page and you can preorder now on Amazon.

Super Shiny Brand New Book News!

rg3 WELL!  I’ve got some book news I’ve been sitting on that’s making me all squirmy with excitement, so let’s get down to sharing it!

As you might know, I’ve had my third book with Roaring Brook Press/Macmillan in the works for a while now.  It’s due to be published on September 20, 2016 – only I’m struggling with finding a just-right title!  It’s about two teenagers named Caroline and Ethan, and it’s told in alternating points of view.  Sort of like my first book, The Truth About Alice.

Caroline and Ethan are linked by a tragic crime – a kidnapping – and this book is all about healing from trauma and finding a soul-saving friendship in the most unlikely of places.  I did a ton of research on trauma bonds and spoke to a lot of amazing mental health professionals and brave survivors of abuse as a part of my writing process, and I’m really proud of this one.  I can’t wait to get it in your hands.  And I really can’t wait to announce a title once I have it figured out!

But now comes my super shiny brand new news.  I’ve sold two (yes, two!) more books to my wonderful editor Kate Jacobs at Roaring Brook Press.

The first book in the deal, tentatively titled Moxie, is basically the book of my dreams, y’all. rg2

It’s about a 16-year-old girl named Vivian Carter who lives in a small Texas town.  (If you’ve read my books, you know small Texas towns are kind of my thing.)  Anyway, Vivian finds inspiration in her mom’s stories about the 90s Riot Grrrl movement, and she decides to create a zine called Moxie.  Vivian distributes Moxie anonymously in an effort to combat the sexism in her high school and ends up creating a modern day teen feminist revolution in her town!


Those of you who’ve known me since I was twentysomething know I actually made my own zine way back when that was titled Jennifer.  (Wow, I really do have a problem coming up with good titles.  By the way, old copies of Jennifer are housed at the Barnard zine library – something that makes me really happy.)  But anyway, my zine-making past makes the zine aspect of the Moxie project really super cool and exciting for me.

Moxie combines so much stuff I love and adore – punk rock, lady rights, the 90s, zines, Texas, and an interesting, fully-fleshed out female protagonist.  It’s honestly my fantasy project.  Moxie is set to come out in the fall of 2017.  I’m not totally sure what the second book in this two-book deal will be about, but I promise you I already have some ideas brewing in my head.

rg1I can’t thank you enough for supporting my first two books, The Truth About Alice and Devoted, and I hope you’re intrigued enough to check out these new stories of mine.

Much gratitude to my amazing agent Kerry Sparks of Levine Greenberg Rostan for coming along just when I needed her.  She is the Kathleen Hanna of literary agents – and I can think of no bigger compliment to pay someone.

See you on the shelves!

My next book…Devoted!

Okay, so I’m trying to update my blog and stay somewhat current, so I wanted to give y’all a little bit of the 411 on my next book, Devoted.  Did I just say “411”?  Yikes.  Sorry.😉

The cover of my latest novel, out June 2, 2015.

The cover of my latest novel, out June 2, 2015 from Roaring Brook Press.

My next novel, Devoted, will be published by Roaring Brook Press on June 2, 2015.  It’s about a young woman named Rachel Walker who is one of ten children growing up in a rural part of Texas.  Rachel is part of an extremely religious family, and when she begins to question her faith, her world falls apart around her.  She has to deal with the fallout and figure out who she really is and what she really believes.

I admit my inspiration for writing this book came from my weird obsession with this show on TLC called 19 Kids and Counting, about a family called the Duggars.  The Duggars (in case you don’t know) are a family with 19 children that lives in Arkansas.  Years ago (when the show was 17 Kids and Counting, I think), I started watching the show purely out of some weird fascination with who they were.  I’d grown up the oldest of three, and I’d gone on to have one child.  I was befuddled by the idea of having a large family.  How did the basic mechanics – laundry, meals, school – happen?  How does a family with that many kids exist day to day?  I mean, there are days I can barely manage to microwave a bunch of chicken nuggets for my single four-year-old, so how do mothers with more kids than they can count on two hands survive?

As I started watching the show and reading more about the Duggar family, I also began to read more about the Quiverfull movement.  While the Duggars have never come out and claimed membership in this Christian subculture, it’s quite clear from their lifestyle choices that they support the basic tenets of this movement.  I ended up reading a nonfiction book about this world called Quiverfull, by writer Kathryn Joyce, and I became totally obsessed!

As I learned in my reading, Quiverfull families often believe in following strict gender roles, and they regularly turn their backs on the secular world.  Quiverfull girls usually don’t cut their hair, wear pants, or go to public school.  Everything they read is monitored and they often have to have a chaperone when they go on the Internet or venture out in public.  Instead of dating, they court, and they’re often expected to marry relatively young and have a lot of children.  Older girls in Quiverfull families take on a lot of the burden of child care, which frustrates some of them.  The reason they have such big families is that Quiverfull followers believe that by having a lot of babies, they are helping to spread the message of Christ.

As I researched Devoted, I got to meet a few young women who were raised in this world, and I was so impressed by them and by their honesty.  In fact, I ended up dedicating the book to one of them!  I also spent a lot of time on this blog, run by Vyckie Garrison, as I learned more about this movement.

It’s super important that people understand that it’s not my intent to bash religion or religious people with this novel.  I still go to church, pray, and have a relationship with God.  But my whole life I’ve been quite intrigued by people who take their faith to extremes and who seem to have no doubts in their beliefs.  It’s this curiosity that drove me to write Devoted.  I really do believe that part of being a teenager is starting to question the faith in which you’ve been raised.  Or, if you haven’t been raised in any faith, you might start to question what you believe about the universe, how we got here, and why we’re here.  So it’s my hope that this book speaks to teenage readers who are trying to ask themselves big, important questions about who they are.  That’s part of the teenage experience, in my opinion.

Bustle had a great write up and interview with me if y’all are interested in more about Devoted.  You can also add Devoted to your Goodreads queue here.

Thanks for the ongoing support!

So much ALICE love…

My debut novel!  Eep!  Still can't believe it's real.

My debut novel! Eep! Still can’t believe it’s real.

It’s been forever since I’ve updated my blog, so I wanted to add two quick updates today – one about my debut, The Truth About Alice, and one about my upcoming release, Devoted, out June 2, 2015 and also from Roaring Brook Press.

It’s been a groovy, crazy, wonderful ride since The Truth About Alice was released June 3 of this year.  I got to go on tour with the amazing Leigh Bardugo (The Grisha trilogy), Ava Dellaira (Love Letters to the Dead), and Emmy Laybourne (Monument 14 series).  In cities all over, I met readers and bloggers and future writers – not a lot of sleep but so much fun!

Here I am with Ava, Emmy, and Leigh posing outside the amazing Red Balloon Bookshop in St. Paul, MN!

Here I am with Ava, Emmy, and Leigh posing outside the amazing Red Balloon Bookshop in St. Paul, MN!

The Truth About Alice has received such a warm response from readers and the trades.  It’s been chosen as a Fall 2014 selection for the Junior Library Guild and received a starred review from VOYA (“Fans of Speak by Laurie Halse Anderson and Speechless by Hannah Harrington will welcome first time author Mathieu, who has crafted a realistic and hard-hitting debut.”)  Wow, thanks, VOYA! 🙂

And just today I found out I’ve been nominated for a Best Debut Goodreads Author award!  (You can vote here if you’re so inclined.)

But the best part of this childhood dream come true is meeting with teen readers and hearing from them on social media, too.  I think my favorite moment was getting a E-mail from a 17-year-old girl who wrote me in the middle of the night to tell me she stayed up late to finish the book.  I kinda still can’t believe my words are in the hands of people other than my agent, editor, and husband.

Thanks to everyone for your ongoing support, and I promise I’ll try to post more regularly! xoxoxo


If Caillou’s Mom Kept a Diary

caillou mommy oneFebruary 26, 2013        

Caillou’s Daddy hasn’t touched me in weeks.  Make that months.  I don’t get it.  To be honest, I’m not entirely sure how Caillou and Rosie even entered our lives.  It’s like they’ve always been here.  Caillou has interrupted us in bed so many times, but God knows he’s never interrupted any lovemaking.  The last time he sauntered in here whining about shadows and some nonsense, Caillou’s Daddy actually got out of bed and made him hot chocolate.  That child is never going to learn proper boundaries with that kind of parenting.

I’d accuse Caillou’s Daddy of sleeping with Miss Martin, but he’s such a eunuch I don’t think that’s possible.  I’m sure Miss Martin wouldn’t turn him down.  She’s such a floozie and a complete alcoholic.  I smelled vodka on her breath this morning, I’m sure of it.  But truthfully, how can I fault her?  She teaches preschool for God’s sake.  To that red-headed little heathen Leo, no less.  God knows it takes me at least two cocktails to make it through breakfast with the rest of this Sunshine Family.

March 3, 2013

Let’s get real for a moment and talk about the color scheme of this house.  My eyes bleed each time I walk into the kitchen.  Red and blue and yellow this and red and blue and yellow that.  I feel like the colors are mocking me and my true nature.  I’m an introspective woman at heart, and I prefer muted tones.  Tans, beiges, a nice ecru.  I ask you – who the Hell has a bright red roof over a bright blue primary structure?   Me, that’s who.

And to think I used to listen to Bauhaus in college.  Le sigh.

cailloumommytwoMarch 14, 2013

Grandma and Grandpa are coming over AGAIN tomorrow, damn it.  I feel like clipping some research about the importance of the nuclear family having time to strengthen and develop on its own and leaving it in a prominent place in the (primary-colored) living room.  Grandpa with his forced joviality and aggressive masculine nature, Grandma submitting to such obvious heteronormative roles (not that I can talk, truth be told).

Oh, wait, Grandma is an artist.  I forgot.  Throw some pots at the Senior Center once a week and now you’re Marina Abramović.  As if.

March 22, 2013

Caillou, that LITTLE TWERP.  I washed his shirt for art class and made him pancakes in the shape of a dinosaur and all I got was a whiny temper tantrum at the grocery store.  I know the doctor says there’s no way I can up my dosage, but I’m calling him tomorrow.  I simply must.

Rosie is a sweetheart and I clearly favor her, I realize, but it’s only because I see her future trapped in the same limited, thankless role while that bald-headed son of mine moves on to some other woman in some other ridiculously-painted house and expects her to make him dinosaur-shaped pancakes just like me.  Did the movement’s second wave ACHIEVE NOTHING?  Sometimes it feels that way, I will tell you.

Only Gilbert understands me.

 cailloumommythreeApril 2, 2013

Park, school, kitchen.  Park, school, kitchen.  And the mothers at the park.  Morons!  I tried to discuss Judith Butler’s latest essay with Clementine’s mommy and the mommy of those damn twins no one can tell apart, and all I got were vacant stares.

I’m a Vassar girl, for Christ’s sake!